loving you is easy

New start. I am beginning anew on many things in my life, and blogging is on the list. I tend to write blogs in my head as things happen day to day. So instead of just letting those entries swim around, I think it would be healthy for my brain if I just took a few minutes and wrote it down.

The Lord is doing a lot. I tend to find myself in desperately painful situations lately, and my heart just kind of cries. Not cry like in tears, but cries out like a longing deep within my heart that is begging desperately for a hero, a Savior, to come in and save me. The next step of these situations is learning again how to reopen my heart really allow that saving and healing to happen. I think I forgot how...it got lost in the mess somehow.

I have also been thinking about loving other people. The theme "easy love" has been popping up in several locations. I was reflecting on how some people are easy to love. It comes naturally, and freely and its refreshing and renewing to be around them...because they are just easy to adore. Then there are some people who are not easy to love. It's a daily struggle and it's difficult and sometimes doesn't work and we want to just run away and quit. I don't know why this is, but i think God puts purpose in it. The message at nativity was about this in a way a few weeks ago...no coincidence there.

But here's the thing. i don't think this means we love those "hard to love" people any less. I think it makes our heart grow and mature when we continue to surround ourselves both with people easy and difficult to love. I think Jesus puts those people in our lives so that we may learn about sacrificial love..and the times he loves us when we don't deserve love..or when we're "hard to love"...